You’re so beautiful

How do you ever trust again when every word was a lie?

When you discover that ever word uttered to you was being uttered elsewhere…

I’m fine. I’m fine. I’m fine. She says

But at home, alone, in the shower…

She cries

She cries because she hurts

She cries because she feels like it is her fault

She is angry

At him, but mostly herself

Angry because she hoped

Angry because even now part of her wants to apologize

Angry because she held on for so ling when she knew

Somewhere she knew

He would never love her.

Never be for her what she needed.

But now she knows… it is her, not him, that is broken.

Her that needs to be made whole